i understand what i'm about to say is going to make some of you lose a lot of respect for me, ( but. )

Tonight was so awesome. I went to the Planetarium for the first time ever, and saw a movie about telescopes/Galileo. I was smiling the whole time. Before the movie, the instructor showed the fall night sky, constellations, and simulated what it'll look like when Monday night's meteor shower happens. I totally love astronomy and the fact that Austin was just as stoked as me only made it even better.

and I saw Jupiter! The observatory has a giant telescope you look through and it was centered directly on Jupiter and you could see the giant red eye perfectly. I actually audibly gasped when I saw it. I'm such a nerd. I couldn't handle it.

Last night we saw 2012. A lot of people don't know this, but I love disaster movies. I just hate Michael Bay, who seems to dominate the action film world, and my hate for Michael Bay overrides my love for a lot of things. That being said when I'm in a non-cerebral mood all I want is a movie filled with special effects and one-dimensional characters. That's exactly why I loved 2012, it's everything you want it to be. The science was so bad it was downright offensive, but I honestly don't expect anything less from a big budget Hollywood film capitalizing off something like 2012.


I really need a job.
Otherwise I'm ridiculously happy and life couldn't be better.

ok so ive seen like 500 groups for creating the infamous "dislike" button...if everyone keeps making one and their friends join that one then our cause will never get recognized..we need to organize ourselves...telleveryone u know to join one specific group for the dislike button and i bet we can actualy get something done =)..just some food for thought

LMFAO. THIS IS A CAUSE OUR GENERATION CAN EMBRACE.

YES WE CAN! YES WE CAN!

also, I should comment this dude's update with "dislike" just for irony's sake.

last night was okay. Went to Rocky Horror Picture show with Brittany and Austin. Then I lost my phone on the ground and I'm hoping they still have it @Surfside...ughh I'm so bad with my phone. I'm so glad it's insured.

I went to Austin's dad's house for dinner, and his dad is so awesome. He told me all these stories about how Austin would pretend to be a department store manager when he was little, he'd wear a tie and button-up shirt around and ruffle his clothes and his explanation would be that he got into a fight with an employee and he had to fire said employee. Oh, also, the store he managed was called "more beans" and everything cost a penny.

anyway this post is boring yawn yawn yawn
I GOT LADY GAGA TICKETS

I didn't even believe it until I got a confirmation e-mail from ticketmaster, and then I was like;


( YOU KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS DON'T CLICK ON THIS IF YOU HAVE A SLOW INTERNET CONNECTION AND LACK PATIENCE JS, JS. )

I know, I'm sorry.
But I'm REALLY excited. I can't believe I'm actually seeing two of my favorite artists ever in under a year's time.

i can't just be someone's friend when it's convenient for them.


i had an epiphany tonight: i may not be a fan of burning bridges, but there are some bridges i never wanna cross again.

I know I haven't posted in a while but THIS IS IMPORTANT GODAMMIT.

I HAVE NEVER MET ANYONE WHOSE EVER TRIED THAT HARD TO BE SOMETHING THEY AREN'T BEFORE. IN MY LIFE. WAY TO GO.

>:U

I apologize for the lack of posts as of late.

Life has been pretty awesome, not accounting my lack of funds. I make with what I've got, and that's all I could ask for.

School = meh/entertaining/occupying
Austin = holy shit, why did it take me so long to find a boy who treats me like a human being?

i come home tomorrow.

brace for impact.


but i also hope the weather is okay its supposed to rain!!! ahhhhhhhh.
also my car almost overheated in jersey.
I FUCKING HATE JERSEY
MINUS THE HOUSEWIVES
THEY ARE MY FAVORITE PEOPLE EVER
MAYBE

i'm gonna get beat up for saying this but i liked the half blood prince MOVIE more than i liked the book.

waaaaay more. TEAM SNAPE. FOREVER.

SORRY, men of the internet, but I have no desire to cheat on my boyfriend.

also updates:
-My dad's coming up on Thursday to come get me and we're driving back down to Florida on Friday, so if everything goes accordingly I'll find myself back at square one and, truth be told, be satisfied with myself. Things don't always turn out the way you want them to, but I guess I needed this. Now I know what I really want. What I want is to stay in school and just get my associates and be done with that, go to a good university...preferably, stay in school, PERIOD, until the job market stabilizes and I can actually get a job doing whatever obnoxiously quirky job I land myself.
-I am craving red meat somethin' fierce. Better yet, I am craving Sonic, Steak and Shake, and Chil-Fil-A(and I am aware they don't serve red meat, but...) ALL of those restaurants are at least two states away. When I come home, please take me to one of the three. Or find some awesome way to combine the three so I can nom and gain back the weight I've lost from eating all these vegetables and walking everywhere. Please? I'll love you forever.
-Apparently the worst insult my sister can think of is saying that someone has an unrefined palate.
-The roads here are god awful and the majority of the men are basically terrible people. Idk. I don't know their personal lives and their moral character but they don't seem like upstanding citizens when I'm being cat-called(HATE THAT TERM) from all angles.


Work tomorrow. Hopefully those berries will turn into monies.

OOOHHHHHMYYYGODDDDDDDDDDD I AM FREAKING OUT WHY DOES EVERYONE SUCK

hahaha you dudes are gonna hate me

I can never stop worrying, about anything.

D:

if it was gonna happen, it shoulda happened a long time ago.

not now.

I saw Bruno last night.

Through about 90% of the movie, this was my facial expression:



it was enough to shock ME.
...go see it.

i am sick of being the person people seem to leave on the back burner.

I LOVE THE SHIT OUTTA OF PROVIDENCE RHODE ISLAND!

i just got home from liberty fest which was basically a big block party with a fuckton of really awesome local bands playing for free. i watched some of white mice's set and got a contact high, which i am enjoying but i'm also kind of worried because there might be thc in my system even though i havent smoked in weeks? and i might get a job that drug tests? fml oh well i'll just enjoy this while it lasts and then walk it off and drink lots of pure shit like cranberry juice and water.
um anyways white mice was the scariest/loudest/most amazing thing i've ever seen at a small show.

my sister has been showing me off to her freinds and they're all really interesting, funny, intelligent people.

I THINK I'M GONNA DO OKAY HERE GUISE

ps the cat tried to run away today and she was walking on the top of the raincatchers earlier but i got her. and now she's sleeping next to me.

okay happy 4th of july.

as i lock myself up in my room, cleaning out my closet and throwing out old articles of clothing(and thus pieces of my younger self) i have been living vicariously through this woman:



i am really stressed out. i have no patience. i want to leave. i want all this to be real. i want to pound the pavement of a real city, with real people. i want to be able to put my paychecks towards supporting myself. fuck everything else. no one else is deciding my fate but me.
the thing is, i have done this before, on a smaller scale. so i know i'm capable. and everyone who matters is behind me.

why does it all seem so far away?

on a semi-related note, ( want. )